An Everlasting Heart

I awake with a blackened heart
A reminder of pain and tears
A permanent visual memory of suffering
This mark will lead me back to forgotten times
Times that are no longer joyous
This is a tattoo of my own destroyed emotions
The ink drives itself lower
Attaches to my very soul
It is buried far beneath my flesh and to remove it would leave me empty
I have been scarred by beauty
And cursed by love
I hope it will get easier
I walk along with the crowd with my heart painted over
Covered by a smile
A smile for my once perfect life
The dark is easier to mask
But a tattoo on the kidney needs time to filter out the pain
Time passes
I remove my shirt only to find the mark gone
The black is now skin
The hurt no longer follows me
I am whole- but a piece is still missing
On the ground is my heart
What I longed to rip from my very chest
I am free
I hold my black heart
I don't want to be alone
Without her, I only have grief
I put my black heart back onto my skin and let it slowly drift back into my memories
It is a tattoo of love
And it will always be a part of me